Audiophiles Unite!

My top 3 audiogasms for Nov 2015.  ‪#‎PandoraRadio‬‪#‎KCRW‬,  ‪#‎KPCC‬. Once an audiophile, always an audiophile.

I rotate these as my Spirt requires. MUSIC SOOTHS NEWS OF TERRORISM. Local and global listening make me feel CONNECTED to my community. There is a heartbeat that comes from shared listening. A focus. And, when we are lucky, a spark of inspiration to activate social change for the better. I love being inspired by what I hear.

I was once a working broadcaster. I was on the air 9/11/2001. I’ll never forget that day. That sense of facilitating connection for a grieving and shocked community galvanized something for me; a love of the intimacy I experience with an active listening audience… voice to ear… clear… pure… intentional communication… in both directions. Calls from listeners drive the community focus and growth. 

Recent events have inspired a new and unexpected direction for my Life. What I can say now is that life looks nothing like I thought it would, and that my new direction is exciting enough to inspire the effort it will take to succeed, scary enough to make it worthwhile, with a big enough YES to pull me forward.

For those on this journey with me for the LONG HAUL, thank you. This story seems to be a “long and winding road.” I see you too. I’m glad we have each other, as we spin in circles around a ball of fire in the middle of the nothing that holds us all in orbit. Wild. heart emoticon xoxoxo

Right now, it’s ‪#‎GotanProjectRadio‬ on #PandoraRadio for me.


Just a day… and a memory of Obama

I had to take a personal day from work today. It’s was a tough call. I’m flowing love to my team today. I do not like letting you down. You are so incredibly gracious. I’m grateful and honored to work with you.
I don’t like having to admit that sometimes, I struggle with some pretty heavy duty depression.  Like, seriously, Leela… GET OUT OF THE BED!!  But today I let myself stay in it and feel restored.  Rest is a miracle.  And some quality alone time to nurture the heart can feel like it’s erasing 5 years of stress.
I just came across the images at the bottom of this post and had the thought, “Oh yeah.  I remember when that was me.  An ambitious afternoon radio personality, fortunate enough to attend the speech and press room for then-Senator Obama’s campaign stop in Portland.  I still have the audio file on an old recorder.  I MUST find a way to retrieve that file.  I need to compare the tape to my memory.  My heart was pounding.  I was terrified.  I did not feel worthy to be in the press core.
But I stopped him in his tracks.  He had taken his last question and had made it a halfway across the stage on his exit when I finally worked up the guts to shout over the clicks and questions and heart-pounding FEAR, in my most clear and cut-through-the-noise-voice, something like this, “SENATOR OBAMA, THE DALI LAMA IS CRYING OUT FOR HELP and support around the atrocities being inflicted on Tibet by the Chinese government.  As President  of The United States, what message would you send to China and world leaders about where the United States stands on the issue of human rights?”
He was leaving.  And he stopped.  He returned to the podium to answer MY question.  That happened.  My QUESTION made now President Barack Hussein Obama II stop, turn around and return to the podium.  He hadn’t even seen me.  It was the passion in my voice.  He must have felt my sense of urgency in the matter because I LOVE The DL.  He brought Darfur in western Sudan into the conversation.  I was glad he did.  His answer was safe.  He was wise, I remember thinking, in how he handled the China question.  Smart.  I liked him.  I was elated when he won.
My mom was there in Portland, Oregon that day, visiting from Texas.  Sitting right next to me in the press room.  How did THAT happen?  But so cool that it did.  I’m so glad she got to see me in my power, feeling FEAR but shouting out anyway.  That day, I was WONDER WOMAN, and I was so proud of myself.  And Mom was proud of me too.  And I was proud of her for being there and staying open despite our not always agreeing political views at the time. It was a good day.
This memory helps me touch that part of me that runs toward personal fear and boundary-breaking expression, as I navigate some fear this day, but show up for Life anyway.
Thanks for caring.  Thanks for being here.
xo – Leela


Senator Obama and Governor Bill Richardson, Charlotte NC 2008 - Taken from my iPhone from the press core when I worked for CBS radio.
Senator Obama and Governor Bill Richardson, Charlotte NC 2008 – Taken from my iPhone from the press core when I worked for CBS radio.

Slow Down Groove

Up too late.  Again.  I’m super sleepy, but I must write because I made a promise to myself, and each stroke of the keys is me following through and keeping my word.  Feels good, even though my right eye is closed and my left eye is drooping, and bouncing closed and open and closed and open again.  Damn, I’m sleepy.

Some pretty cool things are unfolding right now; and some pretty scary stuff too.  I love my life; and sometimes I feel overwhelmed by it.  I’m GRATEFUL for every day I’m being given here to LIVE and explore this human journey.

Sometimes I allow petty things to get under my skin, and when I do I feel shame and judgement toward myself that I’m no Pema Chodrin when it comes to Grace; except when I am.  And for those moments, when I get to walk in compassion, I’m so grateful.

I call my unenlightened moments, “Spiritual Narcolepsy” because I can feel totally Spiritually awake one moment, and then the next I’m seething because someone darts in front of me to steal the only parking space for blocks on the hottest day of summer when I’m on a deadline.  I feel myself become livid at times; then I breathe and think, “I am THAT too.” And eventually I come back to a place of love for the asshole, and forgiveness for myself for having judged said hole as such.

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That first segment was written sometime after midnight last night.  I fell asleep before I could finish and hit “send.”

The following segment is a celebration of my past, present, and future.  This first performance of Slow Down Groove was about finding something within myself to share as an artist.  It was risky for me, and I thank “Sally Sincere” and “Trixy Lane” from Off The Record Cabaret for coming out to play and share their gifts.  I found courage in our rehearsals to finally share this piece LIVE.  I felt so shaky at times I could barely sing, especially at the beginning, but it was so much fun to share this little autobiography.

Terror creeps up sometimes as I’m about to perform, and it happened at the beginning of this song. =) It resulted in a couple of little pitch issues, but I’m happy with the overall performance… a good first effort…. singing through knocking knees. =)

CLICK THIS LINK TO WATCH THE VIDEO:  Please respect the 18 or over guideline for viewing.

This song is really more of a musical story with its loose structure. It was a nod to my past, from classic good girl to exotic dancer to preacher’s wife to performance artist.  Yes.  THAT all happened.  And I’m no longer ashamed, because those experiences were a time of tremendous growth and humility for me.  I’ve learned so much about life; things I would have been well-served to learn as a younger woman.  I learned about judgement and misogyny and personal empowerment, negotiations, boundaries, and TRUE self respect.

Thanks for being here and reading this, however it may land for you.

Here is to brighter tomorrows for everyone.

xoxo Leela

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Revolution: Peaceful Resolution

Hi Friends,

Here is a little something from the PARADOX show on 9/9/15.  There is better sound recorded on a TASCAM, but I’m not able to sync it up right now, so here is the raw, live sound from the video camera.

Here is the direct Vimeo link if you’d like to share it directly:

Thank you to everyone supporting my art… and ultimately ME in doing so.  I’m grateful.

With Love,



44 & Through The Door!

Hey Loves!

So far 44 is amazing.  In the past 7 days since my birthday, I’ve done my first LIVE SHOW in Burbank and gone camping in Joshua Tree for 4 days; my first time camping in the desert alone, but not really alone because I was surrounded by other campers attending #Bhaktifest 2015.  AMAZING!!   I also started a new position at work as a cashier for “America’s Healthiest Grocery Store” and got the video footage from my show, PARADOX.

I’m SO EXCITED about what we were able to capture on 9/9/15 at Theatre Banshee, and look forward to making more clips available as they are ready.  I feel as if I’ve stepped through a magical door I’ve been looking at for years from the other side.  And on THIS side of the door, I’m singing, dancing, and doing my thang as a performance artist. It feels good.

Here is the first video for “Slow Down Groove in C minor,” featuring Steve Postell and Matt Cartsonis on guitar and the Goddesses of Off The Record Cabaret, Sally Sincere and Trixy Lane, dancing to celebrate the feminine.  It was such a fun night. =)  This clip is a little naughty, which was part of the fun.

Thanks to everyone supporting my artistic journey.  I’m so grateful.


Love to all-


Gather Your Rosebuds…

Hey Loves! Life is fleeting, so let’s PLAY while we are able!!!

For some reason, I feel like I’ve been drifting from friends lately. Some have died. Some have just sort of drifted with space and time. I’m learning that, for me, there is no “goodbye” with Soul Friends, just, “until we meet again,” if only in thought.

At times, there is some sadness and longing for friends I no longer see, but beneath it, just gratitude that I was given even a moment of connection. Life is just a series of moments. That’s it. That’s all. So when it feels like “too much,” I find comfort in the temporary nature of all things… and also grief that all things must end. PARADOX.

Which reminds me…

I’m doing my show PARADOX on September 9th!It’s about damned time. I’m EXCITED!

And I’m terrified. Voices of doubt come in to say, “Who do you think you are, Ms. Vox… IF that is even your REAL NAME?!”

But I’m doing it… ANYWAY! Internal voices of doubt can kiss my motivated ass all the way from Texas, where I was born, to the Big Apple, where illusions began to fall away, to North Carolina where I got to be a local radio star and exotic dancer, to Portland where I was a radio-star, minister’s wife, raw-food yogi-colonhydrotherapist to Los Angeles, where I now reside and am finding my way as a contributing artist in this soup of brilliant talent and content.  Nope… THAT’s not at ALL intimidating.  =)  So….

ONWARD to whatever brave thing is calling you today.

xoxo – Leela

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